just to see you smile

i can't believe it's almost break. this semester is flying by. and i'm not surprised by that, but it hits me at certain moments. and then i think about how soon we'll all be gone and how different life will be when we're not here.

for instance, katie was just talking to me about how when she comes home, no one is at her apartment that knows her or loves her. (actually, no one is at her apartment in general, since she lives alone) and that's an odd phenomenon to all of us in college. we're used to living with people who know us so intimately. when abby gets home from school, it takes her about 5 seconds to figure out if i've had a bad day or a good day. when i wake up in the morning, beck and jen can instantly tell if i'm sleepy or grumpy or running late or excited (sometimes all of the above are true at the same time).

but it won't always be like that . . . case in point: my first roommate last summer. she's a sweet girl, but asked me one question all summer. literally. you think i'm exaggerating, but it's the truth. only one time did she ask me how my day was. (and i mean she didn't even do the obligatory return question when i would ask her how her day was). and that was so odd to me. and weird. and difficult to get used to. she didn't know me. and she didn't have any interest in doing so. she wasn't particularly mean or rude, she just had her own life and didn't see the need to invest in mine. and after living at grove city for three years and spending a majority of that time trying to invest in other's lives and having others do the same for me, it was a really hard adjustment.

we'll all adjust to life after graduation. we'll have to. and i think some aspects of post-college life will be unbelievable. we can live anywhere in the world that we want, do whatever we want . . . there is total freedom like we've never experienced before. and that will be thrilling and exhilirating . . . and a bit scary.

so i'm gonna go enjoy college life. i hope you do the same.